Saturday, June 14, 2008

Photos of People and Poultry

The Time of the Ducklings

Actually this story starts out with chicks. I found Welsummer chicks on sale at and thought they were too cute. I Loved the color. I got 6 welsummer and 2 welsummer/ Americana mix. The man I got them from told me to go to IFA and get them some Chick started.

While at IFA I saw cute little baby turkeys and cute little baby ducklings (actually our ducklings had crested heads). How could I resist suck cute fluf? And it seems I was already in the poultry business. So I splurged and got one baby turkey and two yellow baby crested ducks.

They have a home in our Dog run, with two plastic Dog houses (holes drilled in the bottom to drain out any excess liquid). The Dog houses have hay spread on the bottom, and we added a light to keep the crew warm. While they were small we were concerned that they would hop through the chain link, But now they are too big. The back of my dog run has an open space where they can wander out of the run and into my back yard. They free range all over my back yard looking for yummy bugs, and living lots of great droppings all in the lawn, these droppings are high in nitrogen, so it is natural fertilizer :). Now when I hear commercials about fertilizer, I just think "get a chicken". On the radio they had an add that said "no one wants to be itchy and scratchy all summer. Get X product and get rid of annoying lawn bugs." What an add "What the? I think. Since when do lawns not have bugs? Goodness get a Chicken!"

A mama Duck and her baby duckling got stuck in our back yard somehow. She was trying to head west towards the Jordan river. My house is at the end of the subdivision before a BIG ROAD and on the other side of it (the west side) is the Jordan river. Trampled weeds could bee seen all around the yard from where Mama and her waddling trail of fluff and searched for a way out. There was not way out, except for a gate that was locked. Papa and I held a conference and decided we needed to do our own version of "Make Way for Ducklings". So just like the camera man in the book we became this little families escorts. We each got a long stick and used them to guide the family out of the bushes and to the back gate. Mama was rather reluctant to go out the back gate because of all the traffic. But after all that is where she had been trying to go all this time. Her babies hid in the last bush just inside the gate, also scared of the traffic. We gently coxed them out with the long sticks. Then we stood in the road with our hands up telling the traffic to stop, like traffic cops. As we guided the ducks across the street, darling children in the passing cars pressed their noses to the windows to get a good look. Down the street towards the river, across a small field, and into the rivers water, we guided Mama and her happy little balls of fluff. It is wonderful how these little ducklings follow their mother so dutifully. I wonder if mother duck can teach me how to get this type of obedience out of my children :). We had a fun family walk and adventure.

A Mommy duck was ran over by a car, leaving 8 motherless ducklings. I was not there when this happened but a friend of a fellow homeschooler was. So, last week at homeschool dance class I start talking about my ducks. This homeschool mother makes a B line across the waiting room floor and asks me if I would like to raise some orphaned ducklings, because they are trying to find a home for them. Would I? Goodness, not only would I love it, but my kids would love it, and my WHOLE neighborhood would love it!

Unfortunately these ducklings got sick and before I got them three of them died leaving five. The first night here two more die. The next day I go and buy some antibiotics for them and a better warming light. One still gets sickly. These pictures were taken before he died. Now we are down to only two ducklings, but they are on medicine and doing quite well.


Sunday, June 8, 2008

Angel Baby #3, Family Planning

Unfortunatly I just lost another baby at the end of May. As best I can tell this is Angel baby #3, but there may be 4. This miscarriage started rather early, I never knew I was pregnant untill my miscarriage started. I think I might not have realised that it was a miscarriage if I had not allready been through them, this was one for sure. For me this misscarriage has been totally different. For me it helped that I never 'knew' I was pregnant, and that it was so early, and especially because I 'let' it happen.

On my previous two miscarriages I fought against the miscarriage. I decided to believe that my pregnancy was only 'at risk' and if I tried EVERYTHING possiable maybe, just maybe, I could save the baby. Those were TORTURE. I spent my every min. thinking about the baby and how to save it. Loosing those babies was much more difficult.

Fortunatly this loss was mostly like a period that was a bit worse then normal.

There was one day where I sat despondant on the couch and did not get off of it all day, even though I had things I needed to do. That was the worst day. I also have not pused myself to do any work I do not want to, for now. I felt like I needed to go easy on myself at first. Thankfully I am feeling myself rise out of that.

"If you are going to loose your babies so easily... Why," you may ask, "dont you use some form of birth control?"

For me Birth Control is one of the most complicated health topics. Ever since Jeff and I were first married we practiced Natural Family Planning. This was our record for that time.

Baby #1 - 2+ years after merriage we decided we were ready to have a baby soon. We never made plans on when we wanted to get pregnant, that seemed to scary to do. So while we were still in the 'planning' phase we got careless about my cycle and got pregnant with baby #1.

Baby #2 two years after baby #1. I started having dreams about a dark haired dark eyed baby girl that belonged to me, and became EXTREEMLY baby hungry for a baby RIGHT NOW. So we tried to have a baby and had what I think was possiable my first misscarriage. Then three months after that we tried again and had Baby #2.

Baby #3 two years after baby #2. We decided we loved the spacing between baby 1 and 2 and planned to have baby #3 with the same spacing. Infact I was feeling so confident that I decided I wanted the baby to be born in Aug like his Papa and name him Jr. Well I miscalculated and this baby was born in July.

Child #4 While pregnant with baby #3 we found out we could adopt the beautiful dark eyed dark haired girl I dreamed about, she was now 3, She was born in the same month I had the dream about her. She is actually Child #2 by ages.

Angel Baby #2 Surprise an unplaneed pregnancy, we are totally excited. We replan our whole future to include this baby. Shortly after Baby #3 was born I felt strongly that another spirit wanted to have a body, so I felt that this pregnancy was this same spirit. I felt that I communed with this spirit and knew 'him', I strongly believed the baby was a he.

Angel baby #3 Surprise another unplanned pregnancy, this baby grows for almost three months like the one before. We are excited, but alas, things did not go as we hoped. Misscarriage was just like the one before

Angel baby #4 Just a few weeks ago, unplanned also. Lost the baby early-on before I 'Knew'I was pregnant.

You see for most of our married life we had the NFPing thing down. We could pick which months to get pregnant in, and when not to get pregnant. But something changed and now I do not seem to know my cycle well enough to avoid getting pregnant. Something else has changes also, I cant seem to carry the babies full term.

I WILL not use Chemical birth control this includes Spermacide, Pills and shots. I do not trust what they would do to my health, or my reproductive system. I will not fix my DH (he is not a dog). This only leaves the option of an IUD. I use to fear pregnancies that are valid with an IUD in and heard horor stories of babies being born with the IUD in the hand. Or the IUD causing a misscarriage after the baby grew for a while. Now I am concerned about the spiritual implication that the IUD might cause a woman to avoid pregnancy simply by 'aborting' all embrios. That basically the IUD makes it so the embrio will not implant even if it is fertalised. My soul struggles with this spiritual reality. I want ALL spirits to have a chance at life, ALL. I do not want to cause ANY spirit to loose that chance, ANY.

So I am at a paradox, loose a few babies through misscarriages because we have not been good at knowing our cycle for NFP. Or miscarriage unknown numbers of babies that do not have a chance to implant. Thus I remain in waiting and not making a decision. Maybe I need to go back to the basics of NFP, and do all the Newbie things to relearn my cycle. I think that is the best option. Then maybe I wont misscarry any because of an IUD or an unplanned pregnancy.